Self esteem

I have struggled with my self esteem all my life. I have always felt like “the fat girl” and “the ugly girl”. No kids ever liked me, and if they did hang out with me it was because they were desperate. It made me feel like the most unworthy person in the entire world. When I was little, I was very sensitive. I got so upset when people would leave me out of group projects, play dates, etc. I would just cry right in the middle of class, I felt so embarrassed afterwards, but later on in life I realized that I was crying and screaming because of all my built up anger and sadness I had been accumulating because I was a closed book. I also realized that it is okay to be sad and to have a good cry every now and then because it’s human! I really never thought that it was okay to cry until I started opening up in therapy. I never ever thought I could have good friends and that I could have a life after my horrible childhood. Thankfully, I have found my core group of friends and have learned how to love myself due to therapy. Therapy has helped me cope with my childhood trauma and it truly has changed me as a person. I now see that I am beautiful, even though I am bigger than my friends. I now see that I am worthy, and that I matter. Every time someone mentions their struggles, I recommend therapy. If you are going through a rough period, reach out. Whether it’s a therapist or a trusted adult, or a beloved friend, you should always reach out. If you don’t, you may make a horrible decision that you will regret. So that is my story – so far!